Friday, January 20, 2012

For Nights With Tears

Sometimes tears come from so deep inside of me that words can't even describe the jumble of feelings, emotion and often, memories they wash out.
Those tears, usually accompanied by uncontrollable sobs, visit me every once in a while.

Tonight, I weep with uncertainty. There is much on my heart. Fear of unknown. Struggle to trust in God's perfection.

It's times like these when I think to myself, "how would I survive if I didn't have such as a close companion and friend as my Savior?"

When there is no one to hold me and tell me it's going to be okay, He is here.
When I know it's not going to "be okay", He is here.

I usually sing my prayers to him in between sobs.
something like
"Hide me now, under your wings. Cover me, within your mighty hands"

I usually sing to myself as well,
something like
"Find rest my soul, in Christ alone. Know His power in quietness and trust."

But there are nights when I cannot even eek out a lyric.
Those nights, all I can do is close my eyes and try to breathe deep while listening to my iTunes playlist "for nights with tears".
It's a calming collection of music by Kari Jobe, Christy Nockles, Plumb, Selah, Janais and Meredith Andrews.

the music calms my soul, soothes and strengthens me with truth.

There's just something about being reminded of the safety, compassion, warmth and peace that can be sought in the arms of Jesus through words accompanied by gentle melodies and orchestration.

If tonight's a night with tears for you as well, I'm writing this as much for you as for me. Listen and reflect on our Great God, who has you in His unchanging hand.

He is here for the broken and life to the one who is undone
He is peace to the wounded and hope for the helpless one
He is here, He is here

Be still my soul, be still
Be still my soul, be still
Wait patiently upon the Lord
Be still my soul, be still

When the waves rise against me and the wind tries to draw me away
I will stand on the mountain, safe in Your arms I will sing I will sing

Be still my soul, be still
Be still my soul, be still
Wait patiently upon the Lord
Be still my soul, be still

Hide me now
Under Your wings
Cover me
Within Your mighty hand

When the oceans rise and thunders roar
I will soar with You above the storm
Father you are King over the flood
I will be still and know You are God

Find rest my soul
In Christ alone
Know His power
In quietness and trust

a (very) few other songs-
In Your Arms- Meredith Andrews
My Beloved- Kari Jobe
Be Still My Soul/What A Friend We Have In Jesus- Selah
God Will Take Care Of You- Plumb

Hopefully I'm not too melodramatic tonight. Writing calms me. So here we are with a blogpost from a night with tears.

Just remember, 
"weeping may endure for a night, but joy comes in the morning" Psalm 30:5


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